Recent updates it's exam period. That's all. Frying my brian is not a good idea, venting out words from my brian is something I rather do. Yes, I make no sense. Young kids should not read this since the person writing is some weird ass hole who uses improper english or misuse a word :)

Fyi, I'm not facing any emotional huddle, just felt like thinking about random situations happening in school or outside and this is what I managed to squezze out from my brain juice?


Cold people.

The atomsphere feels odd, all those fake smiles, I've seen it plenty and done it thousands of times. Give me a break already! All I want to see is a truthful smile shine from within the heart. That alone is able to make a person feels welcomed.

It's totally random, but this is what I realize is happening in school. Everyone just gives a fake smile to each other, expecting everyone to believe that they are popular and happy.

My theory is that, a fake smile is like a person wearing a mask to cover their sorrow.
I guess this theory of mine could be correct. Is it? I am not wise enough to answer this question.

Having their presense recognized is what everyone wants to feel in a clique. No matter how small they are known for in a clique, that can make the person feel the sense of security that they won't be betrayed, or that they will not feel alone in times of need.


Credits goes to the smell of rain.
The rain scent somehow is able to calm all anexity and anxiousness being felt. Is it used as a tool to numb a person's feelings in the past when alcohol is still not invented?


Alchol is the best remedy for anything

I doubt that. Because all alcohol is able to do is to temporaily keep you away from thinking of your problems, and leaves all the issues faced to the next day. Not only that, it also gives you headache, etc the next day, and for those who cared a lot for their imagine or figure, alcohol or to be exact, beer, gives a person beer belly. It is also unhealthy as it helps to 'kill your liver'. Or is it the kidney?

But what makes a preson drink alcohol content drinks despite knowing all these? Based on my 16 years of whining on earth, I think that it is because people think it's cool, or just for social gathering? Haha. Even me myself sort of enjoys drinking wine and beer. I cannot believe I admit to this but really, at gatherings I often drink them when it is available, but not in big amounts in fear of getting drunk and making a fool out of myself. I have no got drunk ever before, and currently wondering how will I behave when I am. Being an underage girl drinking alchohol, what will become of me when I am much older? Become an alchohol tank? Bar-tender? No idea.

My dream is to be a phychologist, but I can see that dream being hard to achieve since the course for it is for smart people. The cut-off points is beyong what normal humans should score =.=

Ok, going back to studying, bye :)
Shall probably blog in this blog sometime later? Days later? Months later? Years later? Sometimes uncertainities are something fun.

Nothing has changed.
My life is kind of boring.
Listening to music, eating, facing the laptop at home while the whole world let lose their hair and starts dating with their lover.

Oh-wow, I love being single. Freedom to do anything I like, no commitments nor restrictions or whatever there is.

Prelims is in a few days time and I am obviously not prepared. Mentally unprepared.


The Sorcerer's Apprentice - "Secrets" by OneRepublic

Watched this show, it's really good. The best I've watched this year.

Beast - Shock

Learned this dance this year around June. It's really fun.

Byebye. hope wish pray that I will focus and work hard for my exams. No distractions please! This includes you?