29 December 2010

Cheerful, delighted, what other word can be used to describe the word happy?

Went out with him and had a great time. haha! Watched Hello Stranger too, really good show, RECOMMENDED!! It's a romantic comedy.





the original singer.

I decided not to reply because it seemed to be meaningless.

I let my thoughts out through writing or drawing, but I still sucked at it. Look at my broken improper English? You've seen my average drawing before right? That's not the point. Now, everything feels so emotional! It's like what's supposed to be standing is wavering?

I've got no idea what I am feeling, what I am thinking, and this annoys me. So now I'm just pissed at myself? fucked up.

It's like when I'm with you, I've become a numb silent, person. The shy side. It's weird, when I try to open my mouth, nothing seems to be coming out, but there's this tiny secure feeling that emitting within you that makes me attracted.

Somehow odd, and I also realized that I don't usually share my woes. All I do is to ask around questions and eventually get my solution to what's wrong.

So the entire year of "don't care" and "none of my business" caused me to be an emotionless person and in the middle of the year, some random person text me out of "boredom" and now it's like this.

What is this? fated? coincidence? or what?

After the flower got plucked out, it was left in the pot to grow on it's own. Plants do have feelings! Showering them with love also promotes healthier growth for them. The bee got so busy that it only visits the flower once a month? Will it's memories fade away? or be saved?

There's this sour squeeze inside that comes and goes as it please. What's up with it? Numbing it again. It's time to slowly let it out. Share the nectar!

Past to Present injuries. Future?

yup, here again, to complaint all about my carelessness. It sucks injuring the same place repeatedly.

Few years ago, I trip over the grass, or maybe it's the uneven ground, and I twist my left leg. Went to some Chinese sensei, and he seriously gave no mercy.. TWIST... He seriously twist back, press the place that hurts, then massage my leg. Haha! It's perfectly healed and..

This year around September, Elias McDonald's was my 'second home', because I always meet up with my friend/s to study. 'Study' and play. Haha! Made through 'N' levels, now waiting for my results to be out which is in 6 days (as heard).

Since Elias was my second home during period, it's normal for the inhabitant to explore their surrounding! LOL?! (crazy selection of words) Anyways, while I was walking halfway, going down the step to the road, I twist my right leg and fall. WTF.. Ok, so there's obviously blood, and now it's a scar, and the worst of best thing is that I think I have an internal injury. Having no time, and being to lazy to seek immediate treatment, I waited, and about a month later after the incident, it does not hurt as much as it was. So I assumed that it was healed. Yeah, and now when I press one spot of my right leg, it hurts like hell, and when I leave my right leg at a certain position for a long time, it hurts too. This is the results of not seeking immediate treatment, or ASSUMING. Next time, confirmation is the best solution to everything.

Today, super careless incident. My lesson learnt was never to drink, text, and walk at the same time. I'm not a very good multi-task person, and I deduce that the most that I can handle was two task at the same time. walk, text, drink, did not see where I was going and BOOM.. Twist my left leg thanks to this low level drain. At first there's this numb feeling, like my leg just won't move. This brain of mine managed to persuade my upper leg to move a few steps away from where I was to the lift lobby. Massage a bit, and thankfully was able to reach home. Now I'm hoping like mad that this pain is just a temporarily thing. If the condition is still the same, I'll probably ask my father to bring me for a check up, on BOTH LEGS. That way, it'll probably avoid future weird duno-what thing. I guess you understand what I meant, too bad if you don't cause I just can't find the right word.

Hahaaha.


Next week learning the floor part. haha! I call it the fall-down part. LOL.


Learn this dance quite some time back. Quite a number of freestyles. Like the intro and somewhere around the middle. Haha! Fun!

LOL, screwed up version of Twilight saga, Vampire sucks. LOL. Funny.

http://www.sockshare.com/file/TOQVLCOD3C0GSC#

Thanks qr for sending link. hahaa. Hilarious

http://www.moviesonlineathome.org/watch-2693927-Love-in-Disguise





theme song from the show "Love in disguise", super funny. Should watch it again ^^

Pitbull - I Know You Want Me
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E2tMV96xULk

Fucking pissed over the fact that I'm pissed off over nothing.

Hating the fact that I'm supposed to feel something and I remained unaffected.

Depressed over the bad service which made me turned to eating rice, then finding out that I ordered more food which still sucks.

Found out that I've wasted a whole lot of money.

crappy that I scald my hand and it hurts when it's running in hot water.

Hates to be compared. Like what are you trying to do and what will you get after comparing? wth.

Annoyed over the fact that my phone got sat on by a smoker.

Hate the fact that my friends were insulted right in my face.

Fucked up because I found the exact same top at a cheaper price, and I brought it still. So I've got 2 tops at two different price and different colour.

Feeling idiotic that I get what was happening after the next topic started.

Screw my day. Now I've got the rights to say I fucking fuck hate my fucking day? Not gonna claim about thsoe 'FML' stuffs because my life can't be fucked. Fuck seemed to be a word to express anger when it actually meant making love; sex. Get things stright and stop adding 'fuck' to every sentence said. Just venting PMS anger, so pardon my rudeness and if I ever offended anyone. Who cares? This blog is known as dead and unactive and not a sould seemed to knwo about it since I've changed by link like nobody's business!

Seriously, it's really hard to speak with the current condition of my throat. Screw it all! Now everything seemed to have no meaning in it.

Feeling kind of relieved that I've found a place to vent my angers on.

So far, only 2 non-blood related people can defrost this damned fish.
One is the person I've met since primary school, or what is known as elementary school, and another in Secondary school, also known as high school.

Primary school person have seen my true colours, every embrassing moments of my life like all those train incidents. It's just pure retartedness.

Secondary school person was the only person who sees how I eat, and found out that I cut fish smiling. Chicken too. Haha! Really cute :) Talking about this person really cheers me up :)

And in an instant, all worries were just lifted up, and my mood's back! thank you ^^

It's fucking boring, it makes me wonder. Total silence? Thanks for highlighting my blank paper, then leaving no trace of where the highlighter came from. It makes me wonder what's on your mind, like are you stressed up, bored, or just tired. Sometimes I also wished that I have the ability to read people's mind! On second thought, no. It would suck if you read something you do not want to know of. Seriously, it sucks knowing, but pretending not to know because I think I know. I can just fall asleep with you around which shows how secure I feel. LOL. So sweet.

1st november, 20:12

http://fuckyeahstripes.tumblr.com/post/1446507096
like the photo :)

That's me, one of the random shots I took because I was in the camwhore mood.


I like it! Like funny lar, suddenly phone ring, received an MMS. Went to view it and hah-ahhh!!

Hokkien mee. LOL.

Went to his house yesterday (26/10/10), his family super open, very friendly. Haha.
The atmosphere in his house just feels so warm, so comfortable! Haha. And that's why everybody always says that "home is the best place to return to." I believe that this sentence is true, cause I feel the same way too, like after a day of shopping, the place that I feel at ease to recharge myself is of course, home. So sweet, so warm.


Training for the past two days, was fun, and I get my pay just by sitting /standing through the class/ lesson. Haha.

First trainingwas POS training, we learn how to use the cashier.
Mixed experience.
(+) I learned how to use the POS, was great, and it's user-friendly!
(+) Get paid to learn ^^
(-) Felt dizzy towards the end of the lesson. Ok, the feelin is freaky. I suddenly felt a shock at my chest, and within a few minutes, my vission became blur to the extend that I can't see any clours, all I see is bright piercing sliver. All I can make up are just fine lines of the objects infront of me. My hearing also became so blurred it felt like the instructor is speaking through a soft mike. It's like as though you've been ripped off your sense of hearing and sight.
(-) I missed out what happened towards the end because of me feeling unwell, I went to the washroom, and when I'm back, my mind was half-conscious, while my body just tried to stay alert.

Felt kind of pissed that this had happened at this time. Inappropriate timing. I rather this happened when I'm at home idling! Hope and Pray that this incident would not happen till the end of my current work attachment.

I assumed that this had happened because I skipped my lunch and consumed little water in the morning. So, I caused this to befall on me. thank you I suck for this. zz.

After training, I went to meet my goodluck charm! Hahaa! When he is around, my flu just disappeared, and I just feel secure and relaxed with him around.

There's this feeling I felt last year in class, was that I feel so reassured and proteced, as though someone is waching over me. That feel emits strongly when I am seated at my original position in class, at the back surrounded by people whom I am not close with. Everytime when I am seated there, I don't feel pressurized, like how normal girls feel. Instead, I felt relaxed :)

When I walk out of the classroom as we were 'asked' to leave if we do not want to pay attention in class, I felt a pair of eyes looking at me as I walk out by the front door with my friends. Of course the entire class looked over, but that pair of eyes just caught my attention. Me and my friends ended up walking around the school, buying food back to eat outside class by the stairs.

Back to topic, I went over to his house to celebrate his mother's birthday. Played Wii, Super fun, then dinner, followed by cake^^
Feeling the undisrupted heartbeat, and deep breaths at the same time as me. Wow, so synchronized. Just can't contain the joy, like have to share it? But I feel better sharing it here since nobody knows this blog? I hope? I guess?


Today's training (27/10/10), was fun! It's called 'Lend-a-hand' training, about customer service. A lot of theory, and hi talking. After the break and my 3 cups of Green tea, everyone feel refreshed, and started socialising with each other. So much for the complete silence for 30 minutes plus? Reach the training center late. =X But thankfully, we were not scolded for it. Infact, the instructor welcomed us in and just asked us to proceed to a table with two seats available. Haha. He was teaching about polite customer service, and also about their exchange policy, and how you communicate with the customers.

Like what happens it your customers' credt card transaction did not go through smoothly for the first time?
-> Sorry sir/ madam, the transaction was not smooth, can I try again?
If it still fails?
-> Sorry, your transaction is not transitted successfully. Would you like to pay with another card or by cash or NETs?
*We are supposed to return the card/ chang and recipt using two hands, Thank the person and ask them to come again. Haha. Imagine me saying all this polite stuffs. Hard?

I'm going to read through the handout tomorrow moning for a slight refresh, then meet up with friends to find a job for the coming SITEX. I'm just trying to gain experience. Haha, not intending to join popular? Haha, paiseh ar!!

Had Superdog at whitesands with Tatjna. Haha, she watched me eat. xD And we were stuck in there about an hour or so? Thanks to me? It's cold. Super cold with an ice-cream.


Probably more updates in my main blog? http://cottonairbulb.blogspot.com/

Wrote crap here because I know it's a dead blog.

After the entire afternoon of going high, I'm tired. Haha.

Exams finally over, dam shiock uh!
Last paper, which is today was POA. Principles of accounting. Given 5 multi-column paper for paper 2, and I spent 3 minutes wondering where do draw the middle line. The line which divides the debit and credit side.

Went high firstly, because POA paper seemed easy to me, and secondly, exams are offically over! Going to celebrate it with friends the next few days? Haha!

Now, that I'm so free, such that I can fall asleep anytime, anyday, go drinking anytime, anyday, go for a slumber party, whatever it is. Because my schedue is just so free I feel uneasy. It's like in the past, there's always a voice beside me telling me to study, and now, that exams are over, I'm stoning.. Nothing to do. Guess I should just get a job somewhere to occupy my time. Job, ok. WHAT JOB?!?! NEH-NEH-SAI!

no idea, clueless. Eh, just idling for a day is enough to kill me! Bored already.
Peolpe says "Omg, this paper is so difficult such that it could kill me!"
Now I say "OMG, I'M SO BORED SUCH THAT THIS BOREDOM IS FAR ENOUGH TO KILL ME!"

See, extream case -.-"

Everyone is studying except me. Maybe it's the time for me to make up for the loss sleep. My eye bags are getting bigger and I've got puffy eyes yesterday =.=" Not that I cried or something, it just naturally became puffy.

Ok, enough eggazaration on how bored my life is. Now it's update time.



I've got a boyfriend. yes, This time it's real. He's just so sweet :)
Hr said that he would leave 5 nuggets for me as snack yesterday, and he gave me 5 + 1 nuggets with one curry sauce. Haha.

Ok, in the first place since when did I ever announce in my blog that I had a boyfriend before?

here's my dirty history about boyfriends:
I had boyfriends last time, but it's all me playing and cheating.
Call me a playgirl, whatever, I don't care, because that was IN THE PAST. It's called truths hidden between lies.
Just Because those are just internet guys, desperate to get a girlfriend to show-off to their friends, I played along. Made up a whole chunk of crappy lies, and their thinking are just so readable that I can predict their next movement, like what they'll say on the phone, the tone, lala, I don't care.
They go spamming at random girls "I love yous" with an 's' behind. Not only that, they start announcing that who and who is their gf in the virtual world, and flirts around with other girls too. 'Smart' people =.=" I witnessed it, and played along too. LOL

So everyone in the virtual world are just playgirl and playboy in disguise?? Not really, cause only a small number is true. I bet it's only about 5%?!

Not so sure about it, because what I've said is based mainly on year 2008, which is when I was in secondary two. Back then, I was very attached to the virtual world, a noob asshole, an anti-social dimwit who goes online to play lame games everyday.

Left the virtual world, and now, I'm just a random visitor in teh virtual world. Popping in and out randomly, with different identities.


I also had a boyfriend when I was in secondary 1. Ok, that's following the crowd. At that time, the whole school population is dating, and normal idiots like me follow the crowd which I so deeply regretted it. How foolish. I even planned a 'breakup' date and leave the dirty work to my friends. Sorry about that :(
That guy whom I played with somehow is my normal friend, we hi whenever we meet. Like just a fast catch up on how we are doing, like "How's school?" and all.

That's all about my dirty history >.<

Now, it's just plain happiness. He says that he is not good enough for me?, But I think it's the other way round. In all ways, I seemed to be inferior, like social life, IQ level, etc.
Ok, I think I've thought of what to call him :) Feel so complete <3


idling =.=

exhausted?

ya super tired. Hate it when I'm feeling really tired at this period of time, exam. It's like you've got to study, but your brain shuts on you. The best thing is that I'm tired in the day, wide awake at night. This one fact is able to annoy me in a certain way?

Ok, think I should get some sleep first before leaving house. Or I might be dozing off later which is not ideal.

Found many flaw on you in an evening, but somehow I was able to accept and overlook it? Funny though.

I can still think when I'm this tired. The extream is when I don't even have the strength to type, much less open my eyes or communicating. That is when I'm really down - defendless?

Weird, odd, uneasy.

Don't like it. Just suddently feel that everything inside seemed to be torn apart, into bits, just like how a small child would tear a piece of paper. It's just so weird. Feels familar, but not.

Anyways, spent the morning studying. Be surprise ok! My maximum attention span would be approximately 3 -4 hours? And I spend it on one chapter =.=" Going to continue after blogging.

Toilet bowl and bath tub not coming, thus everything will be pushed forward? Haha, ok, stone and wait for it to go.

Exam period. Let's get crazy and go blank? Ok I know this feeling. It's me being nervous in advance.. For some reason, I feel that time flies. Without knowing, my friends are going to graduate, and I'll be taking my 'O' levels next year provided I pass my 'N' level.

Ok, calm down :)

Recent updates it's exam period. That's all. Frying my brian is not a good idea, venting out words from my brian is something I rather do. Yes, I make no sense. Young kids should not read this since the person writing is some weird ass hole who uses improper english or misuse a word :)

Fyi, I'm not facing any emotional huddle, just felt like thinking about random situations happening in school or outside and this is what I managed to squezze out from my brain juice?


Cold people.

The atomsphere feels odd, all those fake smiles, I've seen it plenty and done it thousands of times. Give me a break already! All I want to see is a truthful smile shine from within the heart. That alone is able to make a person feels welcomed.

It's totally random, but this is what I realize is happening in school. Everyone just gives a fake smile to each other, expecting everyone to believe that they are popular and happy.

My theory is that, a fake smile is like a person wearing a mask to cover their sorrow.
I guess this theory of mine could be correct. Is it? I am not wise enough to answer this question.

Having their presense recognized is what everyone wants to feel in a clique. No matter how small they are known for in a clique, that can make the person feel the sense of security that they won't be betrayed, or that they will not feel alone in times of need.


Credits goes to the smell of rain.
The rain scent somehow is able to calm all anexity and anxiousness being felt. Is it used as a tool to numb a person's feelings in the past when alcohol is still not invented?


Alchol is the best remedy for anything

I doubt that. Because all alcohol is able to do is to temporaily keep you away from thinking of your problems, and leaves all the issues faced to the next day. Not only that, it also gives you headache, etc the next day, and for those who cared a lot for their imagine or figure, alcohol or to be exact, beer, gives a person beer belly. It is also unhealthy as it helps to 'kill your liver'. Or is it the kidney?

But what makes a preson drink alcohol content drinks despite knowing all these? Based on my 16 years of whining on earth, I think that it is because people think it's cool, or just for social gathering? Haha. Even me myself sort of enjoys drinking wine and beer. I cannot believe I admit to this but really, at gatherings I often drink them when it is available, but not in big amounts in fear of getting drunk and making a fool out of myself. I have no got drunk ever before, and currently wondering how will I behave when I am. Being an underage girl drinking alchohol, what will become of me when I am much older? Become an alchohol tank? Bar-tender? No idea.

My dream is to be a phychologist, but I can see that dream being hard to achieve since the course for it is for smart people. The cut-off points is beyong what normal humans should score =.=

Ok, going back to studying, bye :)
Shall probably blog in this blog sometime later? Days later? Months later? Years later? Sometimes uncertainities are something fun.

Nothing has changed.
My life is kind of boring.
Listening to music, eating, facing the laptop at home while the whole world let lose their hair and starts dating with their lover.

Oh-wow, I love being single. Freedom to do anything I like, no commitments nor restrictions or whatever there is.

Prelims is in a few days time and I am obviously not prepared. Mentally unprepared.


The Sorcerer's Apprentice - "Secrets" by OneRepublic

Watched this show, it's really good. The best I've watched this year.

Beast - Shock

Learned this dance this year around June. It's really fun.

Byebye. hope wish pray that I will focus and work hard for my exams. No distractions please! This includes you?

Yeah, Have to buck up a lot in my studies. And it's not a particular subject, but everything! I', going to have a 'study feast', meaning, I am going to get back on track and stop wandering around 'lala-land'. Lols.

Lazy embed any video, Haha, and using the laptop for less than an hour somehow made me satisfied? WEIRD!!!

5 minutes to shut down time -.-" yeah, damn lame, I know.

I think it's already been a year since I updated, LOL.
Recent happenings,

Flung last year, and paid the consequences this year - big time! -.-
What I did was.. School = slack = friends.
My class became a gambling den (played card games), where money collections and payments were made after school or after lesson.
Noisy class, some annoying teachers, and me, walking out of class because teacher said that if you are not interested to learn, you may leave. And I just get my bum off the seat and walk out with my friends.
Having picnic in class is also another common thing. Our class brought drinks fromte canteen to class, tibits from mini mart to munch on especially during lessons where the teacher keeps kbkp the moment he/she steps in.

Life was fun, but studies dropped -.-

Somehow managed to pull through and I'm taking my 'N' levels this year, which I hardly ever studied.
Class became more condusive for studying. And all I can say now is, the problem lies in me.
I'm lagging in my studies ( math, physics, Chinese) and I heard that I'm going to have a Chinese exam (write story) tomorrow, 7th April 2010.

Currently still trying to recover the links I lost. Zzz. Is there any way to hack the computer system or something so I could track back all the links I lost?

Need to get back and dive into the horror, books.

How much can a person change in a day?
Answer: number of hair grown or lost, anymore?