Hi netizens! Since I can't really spot who is the target audience for my blog.
I'm Joyce studying design in Singapore and this is my life. Here, I am gona update on what I've been up to, the usual of what you would expect in a blog update. Let's say the only difference you'll spot is my typing style, or maybe the content? Ahh, just carry on and you'll see it for yourself.
First I'll go on with school. I've got to stop screwing up year 2. Been doing plenty of last minute works which has resulted in more stress and crappy content. All that ever blabber out of my mouth was "erm" So hesitant and uncertain. Is that the right attitude? I've got to fix things and make everything right. Well, screw ups are meant to happen so better comings may walk through your door.
Secondly, friends. This three words will summarize it all. "Welcome to Polytechnic". Well, if you're a Singaporean living in this fast paced competitive life, you would have probably know what I meant. It's like "grow up babies, stop complaining, stop whining, and grow up. Nobody is gona spoon feed or clean up your shit. You're all ALONE" trust the right diapers – friends. Get it right or you're fucked in lies. This simply concludes how polytechnic can change your personality. Well, people say it's preparation to the adult working force, so should I be expecting more shits when I graduate? This depends whether I'm the lucky ones. Hope so.
And lastly, relationship. Well, this is something you don't see in a while. I've got something to announce to you readers out there. I've got a boyfriend! We've been going steady for 2 months, but it really felt like 6 months or so. The way we connect with each other really make me in loss of words. Never knew that there was someone so alike, so similar to me and has been there waiting for me. You'll never know what life has in stall! If all goes well, he could be the one to see my first strand of grey white! Love you. I'll never know if you could ever find my blog. All credits of this post goes to him for our romantic mini diary which is said to be the power la la la. Well, it's our secret and suppose to be my surprise. That triggered the thought of blogging, so thank my darling!
hehe! And guess what? This chunk will appear in all of my blog! It's like a feature? LOL LOL. This is how outstanding this life can get. Out shine with love. Thank you. My honey.
Monday, June 3, 2013
Monday, September 10, 2012
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
my backup. Copyrights reserved.
This is part of my report, just as backup here, so...
What is Graphic Design? Why history? History is not just some document recorded down to be kept in library. To me, history is the key which opens the door to the future. May sound crazy, but by learning what happens in the past makes me think about it like what should be done for improvements, what if they did something else other than that, and I think this probably leads to history inspired designs used in these days.
The need to study the history of Graphic Design is so that we can be more exposed to the various styles of art and understand why it is in that form. Like what and why did the artist start drawing in this shape using certain colours? Is it related to what is currently going on with their lives? Their past? The world? Since most believe that art is a way of expressing somebody’s feelings, so there must be some reason why a certain style is executed in that form?
The need to understand a style, the feel of it is important. Grabbing something attractive and using it without knowing it’s true meaning, to be is dumb. Is like sending a hidden message between the message of the style used and the content that you want to bring across. Since communication is the key, then there is a need to understand the content of the style, it’s intended purpose for it, before executing it at the right moment, the correct audience.
DO WHAT?!
The need to study the history of Graphic Design is so that we can be more exposed to the various styles of art and understand why it is in that form. Like what and why did the artist start drawing in this shape using certain colours? Is it related to what is currently going on with their lives? Their past? The world? Since most believe that art is a way of expressing somebody’s feelings, so there must be some reason why a certain style is executed in that form?
The need to understand a style, the feel of it is important. Grabbing something attractive and using it without knowing it’s true meaning, to be is dumb. Is like sending a hidden message between the message of the style used and the content that you want to bring across. Since communication is the key, then there is a need to understand the content of the style, it’s intended purpose for it, before executing it at the right moment, the correct audience.
DO WHAT?!
Monday, August 29, 2011
Courage, bolder, daring.
I should really being to let go and start loving. It seems more like I'm the one still clinging on to the currently non-salvaged dead already broken relationship with totally no communication throughout the few months together which made me partical mad and insane due to the stillness when we meet up and just sweet talks through text like "love ya" Yes I love you, but it's too late to even say it. So let's just say I loved you and which you would tell me through texts rather than verbal. I just need the sense if security that I am really with you and really know you. Thinking back, I don't really know you well at all!! Don't even know much about you. This relationship seemed to be like a fruit harvested too early, causing it to wither. I'm just depressed over the fact that texts from you was able to cheer me up as though you just kissed me and whisper it softly in my ears? However none of it happened. I really wished that back then, I was more ready for everything. Now it's just the making sure I let go? I really wana see you again face-to-face to confirm my feelings. How I will react. I know I'm selfish, and you are the only one, the only person who can melt my heart even after I have left it in the freezer for a decade.
I should be more daring. need the courage. I'm hungry. Food please :)
Qi Han.
I should be more daring. need the courage. I'm hungry. Food please :)
Qi Han.
Saturday, July 23, 2011
Friday, July 22, 2011
Just upset
I guess that I'm at the brink of breaking down. Poor time management, social life, studies.
What's going on?! I just need to rest and get to know more about myself rather than letting every bit of it get exposed and react with air to from rust.
Just don't feel like myself.
What am I suppose to feel?
What am I? Who am I?
I don't even know myself.
I know that there's a whole load of errors, but for all I care.
Just who am I? To you? To me? To everyone?
Besides my name and the obvious. Besides the common description from random people which is always similar in terms of meaning, besides the whatever you know what you're thinking now.
State of confusion. Plan one thing take so long, like want people life. State of confusion, don't even know whats going on. I guess a deep sleep is REALLY what I need.
I'm gonna act and become a total geek for the time being. It's time I lay low and stop being an attention seeker?
What the heck is going on in my mind? I've been running miles and miles, my foot feel sore, and I'm still desperate for an answer.
I'm just stressed up over my current behaviour, attitude, social life.
I wish that I could be much more expressive. Argh, I'm reminded of you again. Glad that you're doing fine, and the expected reaction of 'stop and stare' when you see your ex-classmates. Really, go on? Hesitant to even type this. It just hurts to see... not going on anymore
What's going on?! I just need to rest and get to know more about myself rather than letting every bit of it get exposed and react with air to from rust.
Just don't feel like myself.
What am I suppose to feel?
What am I? Who am I?
I don't even know myself.
I know that there's a whole load of errors, but for all I care.
Just who am I? To you? To me? To everyone?
Besides my name and the obvious. Besides the common description from random people which is always similar in terms of meaning, besides the whatever you know what you're thinking now.
State of confusion. Plan one thing take so long, like want people life. State of confusion, don't even know whats going on. I guess a deep sleep is REALLY what I need.
I'm gonna act and become a total geek for the time being. It's time I lay low and stop being an attention seeker?
What the heck is going on in my mind? I've been running miles and miles, my foot feel sore, and I'm still desperate for an answer.
I'm just stressed up over my current behaviour, attitude, social life.
I wish that I could be much more expressive. Argh, I'm reminded of you again. Glad that you're doing fine, and the expected reaction of 'stop and stare' when you see your ex-classmates. Really, go on? Hesitant to even type this. It just hurts to see... not going on anymore
Monday, June 27, 2011
What is.
The feeling of having super close friends when you can talk about everything under the sun. I admire that brotherhood of yours.
I wish I was slightly psychic back then.
"25 minutes late"
Just spell checked, and I was like "awooooh!! No spelling errors"
So what are true friends? Everyone always ask that question when they wanna get into a deep conversation with you. To me, being a true friend is not to pry over every single detail, and dig the deepest secrets of your friends. In that case, it would seemed like secrets are the only bonds that connects you. I find that meaningless.
Being a true friend is all about creating new memories with them, memorable ones, doing things together for the first time, and most importantly, being there for them through thick and thin.
The best would be a mix of both. Apparently, I'm close to opening up to people, as I'll just feel awkward trying to guage the words out of my mouth. I'm ok wiht sharing to some, but really small number. And I share in bite size, like randomly popping up.
Pouring it here would be a better solution since my other blog is more acitve and is viewed worldwide! Cool!! [Although like 98 views in 3 months] but it's considered good for an average typical blogger!
Whatever, I knwo this link can be found in google, so yeah, BYE!!
I like watching people cosplay. Makes me feel alive
I wish I was slightly psychic back then.
"25 minutes late"
Just spell checked, and I was like "awooooh!! No spelling errors"
So what are true friends? Everyone always ask that question when they wanna get into a deep conversation with you. To me, being a true friend is not to pry over every single detail, and dig the deepest secrets of your friends. In that case, it would seemed like secrets are the only bonds that connects you. I find that meaningless.
Being a true friend is all about creating new memories with them, memorable ones, doing things together for the first time, and most importantly, being there for them through thick and thin.
The best would be a mix of both. Apparently, I'm close to opening up to people, as I'll just feel awkward trying to guage the words out of my mouth. I'm ok wiht sharing to some, but really small number. And I share in bite size, like randomly popping up.
Pouring it here would be a better solution since my other blog is more acitve and is viewed worldwide! Cool!! [Although like 98 views in 3 months] but it's considered good for an average typical blogger!
Whatever, I knwo this link can be found in google, so yeah, BYE!!
I like watching people cosplay. Makes me feel alive
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
It felt like a thousand blades were stabbed into my chest, a weight pulling me down, strounger then the forces of gravity.
Oh, how overwhelming can that be? Suffering? Letter of the love sick.
The Script - If You Ever Come Back
Sister ordered McDonalds, heee!! Got Fries!
Oh, how overwhelming can that be? Suffering? Letter of the love sick.
The Script - If You Ever Come Back
Sister ordered McDonalds, heee!! Got Fries!
Monday, April 25, 2011
Maybe
Maybe all along you were reading my blog post.
Maybe all along you still place me in your heart.
Maybe all along I still matters a lot to you.
Maybe all along you've been stalking me, secretly.
Maybe all along you still have feelings for me?
Maybe all along you've been thinking me every second?
Maybe all along, you're still in love with me?
I'm sure I've not completely gotten over you, and thats a fact.
Images of you happening almost every second when I'm not occupied. Tried to steal spacing out time, but still, i'll never go.
Easier said than done,
The world tells you to let go, but will your heart listen? That's the precious thing that keeps someone alive, physically and emotionally.
So here I say, I'm not sorry that I love you, but sorry for leaving.
Maybe all along you still place me in your heart.
Maybe all along I still matters a lot to you.
Maybe all along you've been stalking me, secretly.
Maybe all along you still have feelings for me?
Maybe all along you've been thinking me every second?
Maybe all along, you're still in love with me?
I'm sure I've not completely gotten over you, and thats a fact.
Images of you happening almost every second when I'm not occupied. Tried to steal spacing out time, but still, i'll never go.
Easier said than done,
The world tells you to let go, but will your heart listen? That's the precious thing that keeps someone alive, physically and emotionally.
So here I say, I'm not sorry that I love you, but sorry for leaving.
Saturday, April 16, 2011
It's really weird. Months ago, I claimed that I have gotten over my ex, and now memories of him still hid at the corner of my heart. It's really weird, I'm on the verge of just exploding, whenever I see BMX bicycles, food, or anything, literally everything, he will pop into my head. It's like an annoyance, intruding into your private space, and you wishing to shoo him out with a brrom stick, but just can't bring myself to do so.
Yes, I just can't bear to let go, I ain't letting go, not intending to let go just yet, just secretly hanging on to this dead broken relationship, due to lack of quality time.
If it was that easy to forget and let go, there would be no such thing as sadness, agony, and for some, even vengence and harted. Leave vengence to God, it's not for us to decided and do. That's what I learned from my Sunday bible study back when I was young.
Prefer those days, when everyone in church was much more friendly. Recently, I've been feeling out of place, and sometimes, questions like
"Do I even exist, in their eyes?"
"Am I invinsible, in their eyes?"
even occured. Yes, those two questions pops up. It's weird, and I got an answer for it. It's just that some of them just can't be bothered to glance at you, not even a glimpse and they ratehr stay in their comfort zone of fame and security with their own clique, and afer the long-run, everyone becomes anti-social, and only mingle with their own group.
Fellowship would turn out to clique gathering.
When someone new comes to visit the church, that someone mircaiously transformed into a lone prey, and everyone, teh predators will rush towards the prey based on natural instincts, and start taunting them.
Just can't stand it. Worse still, when you initiated to leave your comfort zone to mix around, you automatically get shunned. Worse case, your group gets disband as though it extinct, due to various reasons.
Now, I'm just a loner, stoning and doing thigns at my own pace. I prefer not being rushed, my motto is NOT to rush someone, because it increases the chances of something negative happening towards the other party. An example would be when a person is beign rushed, naturally they will haste their steps, and nobody knows, they might just trip over their own leg, then fall and you end up wasting more time. That's teh reason why I don't like to rush, rather give people some space, and having more patience towards them perhaps?
Instead what did I get? A breakup message, leaving me speechless, and I just replied with a one letter 'k' and "Normal friends?"
Now, what if I salvage it? WIll it help or cause more tension, since we both live in two different worlds although just living blocks away? Blocks away may seem like a mile or so physically, but mentally, it's like I'm at pluto and you're at the sun, the extream end. I'm cold, you're hot, both can never intercept or the equality of warmth might get disrupted.
I still remember your hand holding on tight to mine during ONE movie, and that's the last time we ever held hands in 3 months, the time we played at the arcade and that was before everything started. The time we had free ice-cream and that was close to 3 months ago.
Memories of you still stuck in my head. I know it's never gonna be deleted, cause I'm nto a computer software where I can just "alt-tab-delete" or press the "esc" button to leave everything. I also can't reformat my hardware, and start anew. That is only possible if I ever have a brian damage or coma, such that I forget who I am. But too bad, it's never forever, I'll definitely remember it someday, so time is the essence. In tiem to come, everything will be regained, and the agony being felt earlier will start creeping in slowly munching away every life source left.
At the corner of my eyes, I kept a lookout for you, hoping to see you someday, and beign able to chat normally. Hoping everything was like vefore everything started. On my way home, flashbacks of you occured, and I'll think to myself,
"What if I did this back then?"
All the what if. It ain't gonna help! it's just gonna make things worse, and soon, I'll collaspe.
At the corner of ym eyes, I kept wondering if you had ever loved me deeply, the kind where you'll never let go, or you initiated the breakup so as not to hurt us both any further? Or is it just a self-centered ddecision?
Can't make up my mind whether you're mine, as a Christian, we are NOT suppose to be with someone not of the same religion with us, due to future arrangements. I argued with myself that "you're a buddhist. I'm a Christian, we're not suppose to be together" and all,but after living in a self-deciving claim for a week or so, that armor, fragile built armor just broke down, unable to withstand a light wind.
Even if I were to hope for you to do something to make me hate you for life, I can't bring mself to hate you. I can't bring myself to hate people, cause naturally I'll just forgive and forget. It will automatically be registered as a mistake made and not something to seek revenge for and all crappy hatred stuffs which leads to one deadly sins after the other.
I may be able to express myself emotionally in words, but somehow I'm unable to express my emotions in real life, like no matter how hard I try, no matter how mcuch I allowed my tears to fall, It will never, and refuses to let go, to let out, to break free, and it believes in the policy of containment, never letting go, never sharing a single word..
It sucks to be cheerful on the outside, and feel extream hazzard, depression, in desperate need for aid inside. It's like trying to wear multiple layers of wolf skin, when I'm actually a little roden, insignificant little dirt, lying around, sky watching.
I love the sky.
Yes, I just can't bear to let go, I ain't letting go, not intending to let go just yet, just secretly hanging on to this dead broken relationship, due to lack of quality time.
If it was that easy to forget and let go, there would be no such thing as sadness, agony, and for some, even vengence and harted. Leave vengence to God, it's not for us to decided and do. That's what I learned from my Sunday bible study back when I was young.
Prefer those days, when everyone in church was much more friendly. Recently, I've been feeling out of place, and sometimes, questions like
"Do I even exist, in their eyes?"
"Am I invinsible, in their eyes?"
even occured. Yes, those two questions pops up. It's weird, and I got an answer for it. It's just that some of them just can't be bothered to glance at you, not even a glimpse and they ratehr stay in their comfort zone of fame and security with their own clique, and afer the long-run, everyone becomes anti-social, and only mingle with their own group.
Fellowship would turn out to clique gathering.
When someone new comes to visit the church, that someone mircaiously transformed into a lone prey, and everyone, teh predators will rush towards the prey based on natural instincts, and start taunting them.
Just can't stand it. Worse still, when you initiated to leave your comfort zone to mix around, you automatically get shunned. Worse case, your group gets disband as though it extinct, due to various reasons.
Now, I'm just a loner, stoning and doing thigns at my own pace. I prefer not being rushed, my motto is NOT to rush someone, because it increases the chances of something negative happening towards the other party. An example would be when a person is beign rushed, naturally they will haste their steps, and nobody knows, they might just trip over their own leg, then fall and you end up wasting more time. That's teh reason why I don't like to rush, rather give people some space, and having more patience towards them perhaps?
Instead what did I get? A breakup message, leaving me speechless, and I just replied with a one letter 'k' and "Normal friends?"
Now, what if I salvage it? WIll it help or cause more tension, since we both live in two different worlds although just living blocks away? Blocks away may seem like a mile or so physically, but mentally, it's like I'm at pluto and you're at the sun, the extream end. I'm cold, you're hot, both can never intercept or the equality of warmth might get disrupted.
I still remember your hand holding on tight to mine during ONE movie, and that's the last time we ever held hands in 3 months, the time we played at the arcade and that was before everything started. The time we had free ice-cream and that was close to 3 months ago.
Memories of you still stuck in my head. I know it's never gonna be deleted, cause I'm nto a computer software where I can just "alt-tab-delete" or press the "esc" button to leave everything. I also can't reformat my hardware, and start anew. That is only possible if I ever have a brian damage or coma, such that I forget who I am. But too bad, it's never forever, I'll definitely remember it someday, so time is the essence. In tiem to come, everything will be regained, and the agony being felt earlier will start creeping in slowly munching away every life source left.
At the corner of my eyes, I kept a lookout for you, hoping to see you someday, and beign able to chat normally. Hoping everything was like vefore everything started. On my way home, flashbacks of you occured, and I'll think to myself,
"What if I did this back then?"
All the what if. It ain't gonna help! it's just gonna make things worse, and soon, I'll collaspe.
At the corner of ym eyes, I kept wondering if you had ever loved me deeply, the kind where you'll never let go, or you initiated the breakup so as not to hurt us both any further? Or is it just a self-centered ddecision?
Can't make up my mind whether you're mine, as a Christian, we are NOT suppose to be with someone not of the same religion with us, due to future arrangements. I argued with myself that "you're a buddhist. I'm a Christian, we're not suppose to be together" and all,but after living in a self-deciving claim for a week or so, that armor, fragile built armor just broke down, unable to withstand a light wind.
Even if I were to hope for you to do something to make me hate you for life, I can't bring mself to hate you. I can't bring myself to hate people, cause naturally I'll just forgive and forget. It will automatically be registered as a mistake made and not something to seek revenge for and all crappy hatred stuffs which leads to one deadly sins after the other.
I may be able to express myself emotionally in words, but somehow I'm unable to express my emotions in real life, like no matter how hard I try, no matter how mcuch I allowed my tears to fall, It will never, and refuses to let go, to let out, to break free, and it believes in the policy of containment, never letting go, never sharing a single word..
It sucks to be cheerful on the outside, and feel extream hazzard, depression, in desperate need for aid inside. It's like trying to wear multiple layers of wolf skin, when I'm actually a little roden, insignificant little dirt, lying around, sky watching.
I love the sky.
Friday, April 15, 2011
How to Keep Your Girlfriend Happy
Maintain. If you did a bunch of cute things with her before, try & keep it up. You don’t have to go all out everyday for her, but don’t stop completely just because you got her already.
“Ladies first.” No. That rule doesn’t apply to communication. Don’t wait for her call, text, why don’t you try talking to her first for a change? It’s thoughtful & sweet if a guy can actually do that.
Surprise her. You don’t have to drive an hour to her house at 3 a.m. to set off her name in fireworks in front of her window, but the little things are big things. A simple, good morning text, is more powerful than you think.
What insecurities? For the love of God, all girls have insecurities. Please don’t point them out. For example, today I was looking at food & my boyfriend said “You eat a lot. You probably could beat me at a buffet." WHAT. THAT’S NOT WHAT YOU SAY. Also, let her be herself. If she’s having a bad hair day, don’t make fun of her if it’s hurtful. Let her wear sweatpants & still feel pretty damn cute around you, even when she’s not looking her best.
Act the same around your friends. You’re not a real man if you completely blow off your girl in front of your homeboys. When you’re going to hang out with her & your friends you better not run off & leave her standing there to greet them like WUDDUPPP GUYSSS. NO, you better at least walk with her & introduce her to them if you haven’t already. If you walk with her hand in hand, she’ll love it.
When she’s mad. Dude, you better try & get her back. Chase her, whatever it is, don’t let her walk away when she’s mad at you. It shows you don’t care enough to go after her. Don’t let her go.
One & Only. If your girl really doesn't like one of your friends, trust, she has good reason to. Girls’ intuition -shrug- So don’t go hanging with your homegirl all the time if you know your girlfriend doesn’t like that bitch. She usually won’t hate for no reason. Respect her.
Trust. Honesty. If you lie to her, you’re going to have one hell of a time regaining that trust because she’ll start questioning everything you’ve said or done for her, no matter how small that lie was. Fess up or get lost.
Love her. That’s all.
Maintain. If you did a bunch of cute things with her before, try & keep it up. You don’t have to go all out everyday for her, but don’t stop completely just because you got her already.
“Ladies first.” No. That rule doesn’t apply to communication. Don’t wait for her call, text, why don’t you try talking to her first for a change? It’s thoughtful & sweet if a guy can actually do that.
Surprise her. You don’t have to drive an hour to her house at 3 a.m. to set off her name in fireworks in front of her window, but the little things are big things. A simple, good morning text, is more powerful than you think.
What insecurities? For the love of God, all girls have insecurities. Please don’t point them out. For example, today I was looking at food & my boyfriend said “You eat a lot. You probably could beat me at a buffet." WHAT. THAT’S NOT WHAT YOU SAY. Also, let her be herself. If she’s having a bad hair day, don’t make fun of her if it’s hurtful. Let her wear sweatpants & still feel pretty damn cute around you, even when she’s not looking her best.
Act the same around your friends. You’re not a real man if you completely blow off your girl in front of your homeboys. When you’re going to hang out with her & your friends you better not run off & leave her standing there to greet them like WUDDUPPP GUYSSS. NO, you better at least walk with her & introduce her to them if you haven’t already. If you walk with her hand in hand, she’ll love it.
When she’s mad. Dude, you better try & get her back. Chase her, whatever it is, don’t let her walk away when she’s mad at you. It shows you don’t care enough to go after her. Don’t let her go.
One & Only. If your girl really doesn't like one of your friends, trust, she has good reason to. Girls’ intuition -shrug- So don’t go hanging with your homegirl all the time if you know your girlfriend doesn’t like that bitch. She usually won’t hate for no reason. Respect her.
Trust. Honesty. If you lie to her, you’re going to have one hell of a time regaining that trust because she’ll start questioning everything you’ve said or done for her, no matter how small that lie was. Fess up or get lost.
Love her. That’s all.
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
So fustrating! I once knew how to slove those craps, and now, nothing can be done. It's like beyong hope, and it's as though that whole shitload crap was just introduced to me.
Having this shattering heartache feeling, i've probably felt it once in a blue moon. I should be happy, that I at least know that my emotional side is still alive, but upset that this feeling just crushes everything, and anything available.
It's horrible to know that everything I have done in the past somehow went missing 0_0. It's like I've got a mental brain-wash, and apparently, I can't do anything. Fucked-up life.
Chest beating, hard, like being blasted with stero speakers right in my face, but that's all an illusion. Actual fact, it's me.
Sigh, need to buck up, wake up, and leave this, my self-denial world.
Having this shattering heartache feeling, i've probably felt it once in a blue moon. I should be happy, that I at least know that my emotional side is still alive, but upset that this feeling just crushes everything, and anything available.
It's horrible to know that everything I have done in the past somehow went missing 0_0. It's like I've got a mental brain-wash, and apparently, I can't do anything. Fucked-up life.
Chest beating, hard, like being blasted with stero speakers right in my face, but that's all an illusion. Actual fact, it's me.
Sigh, need to buck up, wake up, and leave this, my self-denial world.
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WZQYg0vjLxE&feature=related
Found of this music. Filled with emotions. haha!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MAHhxdcIxCQ&feature=related
Usually the person playing would get broed from the introduction since it's just repeating the same keys over, but I feel that it's a challenge because it tests your patience, and also shows your determination to complete this piece which will be packed with your thoughts about this music. haha!
:)
Found of this music. Filled with emotions. haha!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MAHhxdcIxCQ&feature=related
Usually the person playing would get broed from the introduction since it's just repeating the same keys over, but I feel that it's a challenge because it tests your patience, and also shows your determination to complete this piece which will be packed with your thoughts about this music. haha!
:)
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
29 December 2010
Cheerful, delighted, what other word can be used to describe the word happy?
Went out with him and had a great time. haha! Watched Hello Stranger too, really good show, RECOMMENDED!! It's a romantic comedy.
the original singer.
Went out with him and had a great time. haha! Watched Hello Stranger too, really good show, RECOMMENDED!! It's a romantic comedy.
the original singer.
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
I decided not to reply because it seemed to be meaningless.
I let my thoughts out through writing or drawing, but I still sucked at it. Look at my broken improper English? You've seen my average drawing before right? That's not the point. Now, everything feels so emotional! It's like what's supposed to be standing is wavering?
I've got no idea what I am feeling, what I am thinking, and this annoys me. So now I'm just pissed at myself? fucked up.
It's like when I'm with you, I've become a numb silent, person. The shy side. It's weird, when I try to open my mouth, nothing seems to be coming out, but there's this tiny secure feeling that emitting within you that makes me attracted.
Somehow odd, and I also realized that I don't usually share my woes. All I do is to ask around questions and eventually get my solution to what's wrong.
So the entire year of "don't care" and "none of my business" caused me to be an emotionless person and in the middle of the year, some random person text me out of "boredom" and now it's like this.
What is this? fated? coincidence? or what?
After the flower got plucked out, it was left in the pot to grow on it's own. Plants do have feelings! Showering them with love also promotes healthier growth for them. The bee got so busy that it only visits the flower once a month? Will it's memories fade away? or be saved?
There's this sour squeeze inside that comes and goes as it please. What's up with it? Numbing it again. It's time to slowly let it out. Share the nectar!
I let my thoughts out through writing or drawing, but I still sucked at it. Look at my broken improper English? You've seen my average drawing before right? That's not the point. Now, everything feels so emotional! It's like what's supposed to be standing is wavering?
I've got no idea what I am feeling, what I am thinking, and this annoys me. So now I'm just pissed at myself? fucked up.
It's like when I'm with you, I've become a numb silent, person. The shy side. It's weird, when I try to open my mouth, nothing seems to be coming out, but there's this tiny secure feeling that emitting within you that makes me attracted.
Somehow odd, and I also realized that I don't usually share my woes. All I do is to ask around questions and eventually get my solution to what's wrong.
So the entire year of "don't care" and "none of my business" caused me to be an emotionless person and in the middle of the year, some random person text me out of "boredom" and now it's like this.
What is this? fated? coincidence? or what?
After the flower got plucked out, it was left in the pot to grow on it's own. Plants do have feelings! Showering them with love also promotes healthier growth for them. The bee got so busy that it only visits the flower once a month? Will it's memories fade away? or be saved?
There's this sour squeeze inside that comes and goes as it please. What's up with it? Numbing it again. It's time to slowly let it out. Share the nectar!
Saturday, December 11, 2010
Past to Present injuries. Future?
yup, here again, to complaint all about my carelessness. It sucks injuring the same place repeatedly.
Few years ago, I trip over the grass, or maybe it's the uneven ground, and I twist my left leg. Went to some Chinese sensei, and he seriously gave no mercy.. TWIST... He seriously twist back, press the place that hurts, then massage my leg. Haha! It's perfectly healed and..
This year around September, Elias McDonald's was my 'second home', because I always meet up with my friend/s to study. 'Study' and play. Haha! Made through 'N' levels, now waiting for my results to be out which is in 6 days (as heard).
Since Elias was my second home during period, it's normal for the inhabitant to explore their surrounding! LOL?! (crazy selection of words) Anyways, while I was walking halfway, going down the step to the road, I twist my right leg and fall. WTF.. Ok, so there's obviously blood, and now it's a scar, and the worst of best thing is that I think I have an internal injury. Having no time, and being to lazy to seek immediate treatment, I waited, and about a month later after the incident, it does not hurt as much as it was. So I assumed that it was healed. Yeah, and now when I press one spot of my right leg, it hurts like hell, and when I leave my right leg at a certain position for a long time, it hurts too. This is the results of not seeking immediate treatment, or ASSUMING. Next time, confirmation is the best solution to everything.
Today, super careless incident. My lesson learnt was never to drink, text, and walk at the same time. I'm not a very good multi-task person, and I deduce that the most that I can handle was two task at the same time. walk, text, drink, did not see where I was going and BOOM.. Twist my left leg thanks to this low level drain. At first there's this numb feeling, like my leg just won't move. This brain of mine managed to persuade my upper leg to move a few steps away from where I was to the lift lobby. Massage a bit, and thankfully was able to reach home. Now I'm hoping like mad that this pain is just a temporarily thing. If the condition is still the same, I'll probably ask my father to bring me for a check up, on BOTH LEGS. That way, it'll probably avoid future weird duno-what thing. I guess you understand what I meant, too bad if you don't cause I just can't find the right word.
Hahaaha.
Next week learning the floor part. haha! I call it the fall-down part. LOL.
Learn this dance quite some time back. Quite a number of freestyles. Like the intro and somewhere around the middle. Haha! Fun!
Few years ago, I trip over the grass, or maybe it's the uneven ground, and I twist my left leg. Went to some Chinese sensei, and he seriously gave no mercy.. TWIST... He seriously twist back, press the place that hurts, then massage my leg. Haha! It's perfectly healed and..
This year around September, Elias McDonald's was my 'second home', because I always meet up with my friend/s to study. 'Study' and play. Haha! Made through 'N' levels, now waiting for my results to be out which is in 6 days (as heard).
Since Elias was my second home during period, it's normal for the inhabitant to explore their surrounding! LOL?! (crazy selection of words) Anyways, while I was walking halfway, going down the step to the road, I twist my right leg and fall. WTF.. Ok, so there's obviously blood, and now it's a scar, and the worst of best thing is that I think I have an internal injury. Having no time, and being to lazy to seek immediate treatment, I waited, and about a month later after the incident, it does not hurt as much as it was. So I assumed that it was healed. Yeah, and now when I press one spot of my right leg, it hurts like hell, and when I leave my right leg at a certain position for a long time, it hurts too. This is the results of not seeking immediate treatment, or ASSUMING. Next time, confirmation is the best solution to everything.
Today, super careless incident. My lesson learnt was never to drink, text, and walk at the same time. I'm not a very good multi-task person, and I deduce that the most that I can handle was two task at the same time. walk, text, drink, did not see where I was going and BOOM.. Twist my left leg thanks to this low level drain. At first there's this numb feeling, like my leg just won't move. This brain of mine managed to persuade my upper leg to move a few steps away from where I was to the lift lobby. Massage a bit, and thankfully was able to reach home. Now I'm hoping like mad that this pain is just a temporarily thing. If the condition is still the same, I'll probably ask my father to bring me for a check up, on BOTH LEGS. That way, it'll probably avoid future weird duno-what thing. I guess you understand what I meant, too bad if you don't cause I just can't find the right word.
Hahaaha.
Next week learning the floor part. haha! I call it the fall-down part. LOL.
Learn this dance quite some time back. Quite a number of freestyles. Like the intro and somewhere around the middle. Haha! Fun!
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
LOL, screwed up version of Twilight saga, Vampire sucks. LOL. Funny.
http://www.sockshare.com/file/TOQVLCOD3C0GSC#
Thanks qr for sending link. hahaa. Hilarious
http://www.moviesonlineathome.org/watch-2693927-Love-in-Disguise
theme song from the show "Love in disguise", super funny. Should watch it again ^^
Pitbull - I Know You Want Me
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E2tMV96xULk
http://www.sockshare.com/file/TOQVLCOD3C0GSC#
Thanks qr for sending link. hahaa. Hilarious
http://www.moviesonlineathome.org/watch-2693927-Love-in-Disguise
theme song from the show "Love in disguise", super funny. Should watch it again ^^
Pitbull - I Know You Want Me
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E2tMV96xULk
Fucking pissed over the fact that I'm pissed off over nothing.
Hating the fact that I'm supposed to feel something and I remained unaffected.
Depressed over the bad service which made me turned to eating rice, then finding out that I ordered more food which still sucks.
Found out that I've wasted a whole lot of money.
crappy that I scald my hand and it hurts when it's running in hot water.
Hates to be compared. Like what are you trying to do and what will you get after comparing? wth.
Annoyed over the fact that my phone got sat on by a smoker.
Hate the fact that my friends were insulted right in my face.
Fucked up because I found the exact same top at a cheaper price, and I brought it still. So I've got 2 tops at two different price and different colour.
Feeling idiotic that I get what was happening after the next topic started.
Screw my day. Now I've got the rights to say I fucking fuck hate my fucking day? Not gonna claim about thsoe 'FML' stuffs because my life can't be fucked. Fuck seemed to be a word to express anger when it actually meant making love; sex. Get things stright and stop adding 'fuck' to every sentence said. Just venting PMS anger, so pardon my rudeness and if I ever offended anyone. Who cares? This blog is known as dead and unactive and not a sould seemed to knwo about it since I've changed by link like nobody's business!
Seriously, it's really hard to speak with the current condition of my throat. Screw it all! Now everything seemed to have no meaning in it.
Feeling kind of relieved that I've found a place to vent my angers on.
So far, only 2 non-blood related people can defrost this damned fish.
One is the person I've met since primary school, or what is known as elementary school, and another in Secondary school, also known as high school.
Primary school person have seen my true colours, every embrassing moments of my life like all those train incidents. It's just pure retartedness.
Secondary school person was the only person who sees how I eat, and found out that I cut fish smiling. Chicken too. Haha! Really cute :) Talking about this person really cheers me up :)
And in an instant, all worries were just lifted up, and my mood's back! thank you ^^
Hating the fact that I'm supposed to feel something and I remained unaffected.
Depressed over the bad service which made me turned to eating rice, then finding out that I ordered more food which still sucks.
Found out that I've wasted a whole lot of money.
crappy that I scald my hand and it hurts when it's running in hot water.
Hates to be compared. Like what are you trying to do and what will you get after comparing? wth.
Annoyed over the fact that my phone got sat on by a smoker.
Hate the fact that my friends were insulted right in my face.
Fucked up because I found the exact same top at a cheaper price, and I brought it still. So I've got 2 tops at two different price and different colour.
Feeling idiotic that I get what was happening after the next topic started.
Screw my day. Now I've got the rights to say I fucking fuck hate my fucking day? Not gonna claim about thsoe 'FML' stuffs because my life can't be fucked. Fuck seemed to be a word to express anger when it actually meant making love; sex. Get things stright and stop adding 'fuck' to every sentence said. Just venting PMS anger, so pardon my rudeness and if I ever offended anyone. Who cares? This blog is known as dead and unactive and not a sould seemed to knwo about it since I've changed by link like nobody's business!
Seriously, it's really hard to speak with the current condition of my throat. Screw it all! Now everything seemed to have no meaning in it.
Feeling kind of relieved that I've found a place to vent my angers on.
So far, only 2 non-blood related people can defrost this damned fish.
One is the person I've met since primary school, or what is known as elementary school, and another in Secondary school, also known as high school.
Primary school person have seen my true colours, every embrassing moments of my life like all those train incidents. It's just pure retartedness.
Secondary school person was the only person who sees how I eat, and found out that I cut fish smiling. Chicken too. Haha! Really cute :) Talking about this person really cheers me up :)
And in an instant, all worries were just lifted up, and my mood's back! thank you ^^
Monday, November 1, 2010
It's fucking boring, it makes me wonder. Total silence? Thanks for highlighting my blank paper, then leaving no trace of where the highlighter came from. It makes me wonder what's on your mind, like are you stressed up, bored, or just tired. Sometimes I also wished that I have the ability to read people's mind! On second thought, no. It would suck if you read something you do not want to know of. Seriously, it sucks knowing, but pretending not to know because I think I know. I can just fall asleep with you around which shows how secure I feel. LOL. So sweet.
1st november, 20:12
http://fuckyeahstripes.tumblr.com/post/1446507096
like the photo :)
1st november, 20:12
http://fuckyeahstripes.tumblr.com/post/1446507096
like the photo :)
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
That's me, one of the random shots I took because I was in the camwhore mood.
I like it! Like funny lar, suddenly phone ring, received an MMS. Went to view it and hah-ahhh!!
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Hokkien mee. LOL.
Went to his house yesterday (26/10/10), his family super open, very friendly. Haha.
The atmosphere in his house just feels so warm, so comfortable! Haha. And that's why everybody always says that "home is the best place to return to." I believe that this sentence is true, cause I feel the same way too, like after a day of shopping, the place that I feel at ease to recharge myself is of course, home. So sweet, so warm.
Training for the past two days, was fun, and I get my pay just by sitting /standing through the class/ lesson. Haha.
First trainingwas POS training, we learn how to use the cashier.
Mixed experience.
(+) I learned how to use the POS, was great, and it's user-friendly!
(+) Get paid to learn ^^
(-) Felt dizzy towards the end of the lesson. Ok, the feelin is freaky. I suddenly felt a shock at my chest, and within a few minutes, my vission became blur to the extend that I can't see any clours, all I see is bright piercing sliver. All I can make up are just fine lines of the objects infront of me. My hearing also became so blurred it felt like the instructor is speaking through a soft mike. It's like as though you've been ripped off your sense of hearing and sight.
(-) I missed out what happened towards the end because of me feeling unwell, I went to the washroom, and when I'm back, my mind was half-conscious, while my body just tried to stay alert.
Felt kind of pissed that this had happened at this time. Inappropriate timing. I rather this happened when I'm at home idling! Hope and Pray that this incident would not happen till the end of my current work attachment.
I assumed that this had happened because I skipped my lunch and consumed little water in the morning. So, I caused this to befall on me. thank you I suck for this. zz.
After training, I went to meet my goodluck charm! Hahaa! When he is around, my flu just disappeared, and I just feel secure and relaxed with him around.
There's this feeling I felt last year in class, was that I feel so reassured and proteced, as though someone is waching over me. That feel emits strongly when I am seated at my original position in class, at the back surrounded by people whom I am not close with. Everytime when I am seated there, I don't feel pressurized, like how normal girls feel. Instead, I felt relaxed :)
When I walk out of the classroom as we were 'asked' to leave if we do not want to pay attention in class, I felt a pair of eyes looking at me as I walk out by the front door with my friends. Of course the entire class looked over, but that pair of eyes just caught my attention. Me and my friends ended up walking around the school, buying food back to eat outside class by the stairs.
Back to topic, I went over to his house to celebrate his mother's birthday. Played Wii, Super fun, then dinner, followed by cake^^
Feeling the undisrupted heartbeat, and deep breaths at the same time as me. Wow, so synchronized. Just can't contain the joy, like have to share it? But I feel better sharing it here since nobody knows this blog? I hope? I guess?
Today's training (27/10/10), was fun! It's called 'Lend-a-hand' training, about customer service. A lot of theory, and hi talking. After the break and my 3 cups of Green tea, everyone feel refreshed, and started socialising with each other. So much for the complete silence for 30 minutes plus? Reach the training center late. =X But thankfully, we were not scolded for it. Infact, the instructor welcomed us in and just asked us to proceed to a table with two seats available. Haha. He was teaching about polite customer service, and also about their exchange policy, and how you communicate with the customers.
Like what happens it your customers' credt card transaction did not go through smoothly for the first time?
-> Sorry sir/ madam, the transaction was not smooth, can I try again?
If it still fails?
-> Sorry, your transaction is not transitted successfully. Would you like to pay with another card or by cash or NETs?
*We are supposed to return the card/ chang and recipt using two hands, Thank the person and ask them to come again. Haha. Imagine me saying all this polite stuffs. Hard?
I'm going to read through the handout tomorrow moning for a slight refresh, then meet up with friends to find a job for the coming SITEX. I'm just trying to gain experience. Haha, not intending to join popular? Haha, paiseh ar!!
Had Superdog at whitesands with Tatjna. Haha, she watched me eat. xD And we were stuck in there about an hour or so? Thanks to me? It's cold. Super cold with an ice-cream.
Probably more updates in my main blog? http://cottonairbulb.blogspot.com/
I like it! Like funny lar, suddenly phone ring, received an MMS. Went to view it and hah-ahhh!!
.png)
Hokkien mee. LOL.
Went to his house yesterday (26/10/10), his family super open, very friendly. Haha.
The atmosphere in his house just feels so warm, so comfortable! Haha. And that's why everybody always says that "home is the best place to return to." I believe that this sentence is true, cause I feel the same way too, like after a day of shopping, the place that I feel at ease to recharge myself is of course, home. So sweet, so warm.
Training for the past two days, was fun, and I get my pay just by sitting /standing through the class/ lesson. Haha.
First trainingwas POS training, we learn how to use the cashier.
Mixed experience.
(+) I learned how to use the POS, was great, and it's user-friendly!
(+) Get paid to learn ^^
(-) Felt dizzy towards the end of the lesson. Ok, the feelin is freaky. I suddenly felt a shock at my chest, and within a few minutes, my vission became blur to the extend that I can't see any clours, all I see is bright piercing sliver. All I can make up are just fine lines of the objects infront of me. My hearing also became so blurred it felt like the instructor is speaking through a soft mike. It's like as though you've been ripped off your sense of hearing and sight.
(-) I missed out what happened towards the end because of me feeling unwell, I went to the washroom, and when I'm back, my mind was half-conscious, while my body just tried to stay alert.
Felt kind of pissed that this had happened at this time. Inappropriate timing. I rather this happened when I'm at home idling! Hope and Pray that this incident would not happen till the end of my current work attachment.
I assumed that this had happened because I skipped my lunch and consumed little water in the morning. So, I caused this to befall on me. thank you I suck for this. zz.
After training, I went to meet my goodluck charm! Hahaa! When he is around, my flu just disappeared, and I just feel secure and relaxed with him around.
There's this feeling I felt last year in class, was that I feel so reassured and proteced, as though someone is waching over me. That feel emits strongly when I am seated at my original position in class, at the back surrounded by people whom I am not close with. Everytime when I am seated there, I don't feel pressurized, like how normal girls feel. Instead, I felt relaxed :)
When I walk out of the classroom as we were 'asked' to leave if we do not want to pay attention in class, I felt a pair of eyes looking at me as I walk out by the front door with my friends. Of course the entire class looked over, but that pair of eyes just caught my attention. Me and my friends ended up walking around the school, buying food back to eat outside class by the stairs.
Back to topic, I went over to his house to celebrate his mother's birthday. Played Wii, Super fun, then dinner, followed by cake^^
Feeling the undisrupted heartbeat, and deep breaths at the same time as me. Wow, so synchronized. Just can't contain the joy, like have to share it? But I feel better sharing it here since nobody knows this blog? I hope? I guess?
Today's training (27/10/10), was fun! It's called 'Lend-a-hand' training, about customer service. A lot of theory, and hi talking. After the break and my 3 cups of Green tea, everyone feel refreshed, and started socialising with each other. So much for the complete silence for 30 minutes plus? Reach the training center late. =X But thankfully, we were not scolded for it. Infact, the instructor welcomed us in and just asked us to proceed to a table with two seats available. Haha. He was teaching about polite customer service, and also about their exchange policy, and how you communicate with the customers.
Like what happens it your customers' credt card transaction did not go through smoothly for the first time?
-> Sorry sir/ madam, the transaction was not smooth, can I try again?
If it still fails?
-> Sorry, your transaction is not transitted successfully. Would you like to pay with another card or by cash or NETs?
*We are supposed to return the card/ chang and recipt using two hands, Thank the person and ask them to come again. Haha. Imagine me saying all this polite stuffs. Hard?
I'm going to read through the handout tomorrow moning for a slight refresh, then meet up with friends to find a job for the coming SITEX. I'm just trying to gain experience. Haha, not intending to join popular? Haha, paiseh ar!!
Had Superdog at whitesands with Tatjna. Haha, she watched me eat. xD And we were stuck in there about an hour or so? Thanks to me? It's cold. Super cold with an ice-cream.
Probably more updates in my main blog? http://cottonairbulb.blogspot.com/
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